Assalamulaikum, 

It's Fara again. Sorry for relapsing. I fiund a greater distraction and strong supoort system ever since I made my cosplay comeback. 

Minor comback was on 30th Oct 2022. then start growing with the same cosplay, Venti. Then start a major comeback on 2024. All thanks to the sponsors, I havent need to spend ,uch in cosplay mostly on boots and shoes la.

sbb dia terlampau banyak skang ni, me buat as rent je mostoy budak sekolah yg sewa sbb me berbadan kecik, xS lmao.

thanks yo my anak2 suzu and lulu my shishou for everything. Also im greatful that throughtout these 3 years of having trauma on december, this is the most bearable one cuz i got then main distraction i need. 

 hi, Assalamulaikum.

Dorang tak faham what is takut.

Dorang memaksa untuk aku berdepan,

aku pergi, aku ke depan dan mintak tolong. Tapi kena gantung.

pergi mintak tolong kat orang lain kena cop attention seeker. Tapi mintak tolong dgn orang yg memahami pulak cakap aku susah nk kena approach, aku x suruh drg cari aku pun, aku suruh drg constantly reply aku. 

"just keep me on surface. Please?"

do they heard? no.

kenapa palau? kenapa tak reply?

sbb tak tatahu. kenapa kena acknowledge and layanan mesti berbeza? kenapa aku yang kena berubah bila drg yg berubah ? aku tak faham. Apa yang korg nak? sakit aku bukan kau. Sakit korang sakit aku. aku tak faham. Kata suruh bergantung tapi kenapa aku recieved sebaliknya?

jealous? cemburu? buat perbandingan? anak2 aku tak pernah layan aku sebegitu. Kenapa nk bandingkan sbb drg kata aku tak pernah berubah di mata mereka, kenapa kau nampak aku macam tu dan bukan mereka? sbb kau lg tersakiti dari apa yang aku lalui? sakit bukan satu perbandingan, kalau suruh bergantung buat cara-

hmmm....

I guess that's enough for her. Let her sleep. She's just tired. Physically and Mentally.

well. This is my first time writing in here. Akira said this is one of medium for us, the alter and her to communicate or express. 

I'll write more later it jst I'm running out of idea to what to write haha, I'm here just to let her rest. 

Dayin :D