today...
Sunday, August 28, 2016
@5:54 AM
Assalamualaikum....
ohayou~
-----------*detail confession*-----------
bismillahirahmanirahim.
hey there. I have argued with my self about many things that I keep inside me for long time ago till now. So we decide to let it go...
It's about my beloved best friend since I was standard 6 till 2015, Dinah Diyanah Binte Yusof. I state 2015 because since that I have an instinct that our friendship was totally broken because every time I text her or do comment her post or something we would reply shortly like she had something more important to do. If I was her, I will try to keep the conversation for long because ...of course you will miss your best friend very bad. And yeah I always do something like undirect messages or posts , well something like undirect tweet. It's easy mehn, of obviously those thing are for her and and she do nothing. Idk maybe she thought that those are for other people or she just leave it or she block me (moment as example).
She never like my posts or everything was mine. She never starts a conversation with me(except for the Eid ul fitri) I remember every detail about her, ABOUT US. What did she do? nothing,k NOTHING. I heard that she'd cried for a week because she had lost me . Me too but I always keep in my mind we will never forget and betray each other because we are best friend after all. I 've been worried about her, that she couldn't stand living in that school without me. Well, I think I was wrong. no, IM TOTALLY WRONG. Look! she looks happy, VERY HAPPY without me. I'm so glad that she could build her happiness there without me. She has many friends than I did.
Then when I think about it, I'm regret because I left her for my own sake. Living here in TJTI is more painful than I've been through before. I talk about Her every day to my friends at TJTI because I wish she could be by my side. I'm glad that I'm still have Aiman to make me my old self. I love being me...everyone still remember me, they said they miss me like I miss all the cyberians too, what makes me sad is why does only she don't do the same as they did to me. I really need her every time I come home. I wanna talk to her. Seems like she don't remember me.
Maybe I should stop stalking her every time I'm home... I should stop worrying about her. Maybe she's...not, we are not a best friend anymore , more like not a friend...I guess... I'm sorry ..I'm just cannot hold this or else I'll cut my self again. I feel bad...
if this is the last good bye, I wanna you to know that I really, and ALWAYS love you.
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uh so I'll continue the second person in mylife (family not included) That I really love. It's Ion or her real name is Nur Fatin Amirah Binti Abdullah.
to be continue...
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